Betrayal

What a horrid betrayal
How dare I think of it
Something younger
Something better
No, never, I can't
Why do I then?
I hate myself for thinking
Too much of the loss
More though I hate it
That I wish for more
Fool I've become
To want the loss
To disintegrate love
But how do I escape?
My mind damns you
But it ruins me more
You know not fear
You won't entertain it
Sadly I'll condemn you
Secretly wanting another
How the coveting kills
I can't bear the thought
But too gladly I do it
How terrible I am!

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well, this isn't about people, i'll give ya that much.